A TALK I NEVER HAD WITH MY FATHER

why did you sign up?
I thought I was suppose to
why?
I thought I could help win the war

what was it like?
at first it was exciting
then?
then I thought I could help
then?
then I needed to be helped
then?
then I was beyond help

what was it like when you came back?
at first I thought I could come back
then what was it like?
then part of me knew I could never come back
and then?
I was lost forever

how did you know you were lost?
I couldn't pick up the pieces in my head
what happened then?
I drank myself to death in five years